Sarah Anne I Am

  I wish everyone had a Levi in their life.   I wish you and everyone else had a seven-year-old little brother like him. I wish I could share this with you.    Levi is one of the greatest and most remarkable blessings in my life, and he is a constant reminder of limitless joy and limitless love. I wish everyone had such a reminder in their day-to-day lives.   I hope I never take this child for granted. I hope I never forget how much of an impact one person loving others with all of their heart can make- if a little boy can impact so many people in only seven years, surely I can impact others as well.   And surely so can you.

 ”It is a good thing that God doesn’t show us glimpses of our future, otherwise we might not want to move towards them.   At least this is the case with me- I know that if I had seen visions of my future self when I was a child, I would have been both incredulous and incredibly unhappy. I thought this as I walked across camp this morning, looking down at my skinny jeans and my moccasins. The only thing I that I am wearing at the moment that I would have approved of when I was seven is my moccasins and my red nail polish. I would’ve been horrified to know that I would someday wear straight leg pants like my mother does, because as a child I vowed never to wear anything that wasn’t cargo pants or flares, regardless of what may be in fashion.   And if, as a seven-year-old girl, I could’ve seen any other piece of my life right now as well, I think I would have been equally unhappy about that.   I didn’t want a car like this, or a job that doesn’t pay lots and lots of money and require me t

I know you’ve been hurt. You’ve been let down. I know you see other people finding love- or even just things that look like a semblance of love- and you want that for yourself as well. I get that. I understand. I spent years standing in that place. But taking matters into your own hands time after time and getting into a relationship simply because you CAN has proven to do nothing for you. Remember how you’ve been hurt? Remember how you’ve been let down? Remember how it never seems to work out quite how you’d hoped it would, and you end up either pretending it never mattered or angry that it did? Don’t do that again. Don’t keep doing that over and over again. You won’t find any real joy in a relationship until you stop trying to force God’s hand by jumping into things and hoping He’ll work it out. Yes, God can do incredible make-overs on a persons soul. But wait until after He does to date them, please. See, I say all of this because I love you so much that it hurts to watch you t